if god blessed this being, why am i so troubled? it seems as if i linger from place to place... never finding a home. i just want to go home but i dont know where that is. im lost beyond control. god bless me before i bless myself. tell me give into temptation not, seek kindness yes. my mind is too troubled to continue. yet im not strong enough to say goodbye to the anger and filth that loathes the smell of my protection. my god is laying deflated on the road to nowhere, tell me shall i seek more, my lord? do i continue a failing path lead to just that, failure? shall i look out side the box for once? is the cup half empty, or half full? shit